Since young I have been dreaming of studying overseas. No, I don't mean crossing over the sea from Penang to KL. Overseas as in out of Malaysia. To Australia. Or maybe UK. Or some kuai lou country. For as long as I can remember, I never gave up on my dream for anyone. Not my exes, not my friends, not my family. Unless, if my daddy tersayang doesn't want to sponsor my education, then I have no choice but to give up. Not like I can afford it on my own, rite?
I've always thought that no one, no one besides my dad could influence my decision of going overseas. But, for once, I really thought of giving up my lifetime dream for someone. I wanted to stay on in KL because I seriously don't trust in long distance relationship. I used to be in a so called long distance relationship. It's so called long distance because I was in KL while my ex was in Nilai. Which was just an hour away. With just an hour distance, it still didn't work out. I doubt it will work out if I am flying off to London. For a moment, I almost decided to stay here. Graduate from HELP. Work here in KL.
It's not like I don't trust him. I do. I trust him more than I trust myself, really. Lol. And my friends said, they too believe that he will wait for me. But, the word LOOONNNNNGG distance is far too much for me to handle. We have been avoiding this topic for quite some time. But, I think, IF I'm leaving to London, this topic should not be avoided anymore. Its time to have a serious talk about this matter.
He was right. Even if it works out for the one year, what about the rest of the years? I will most probably be back in Penang, working. He will most probably be working here. What will happen to us? True. It makes sense. But, we can't predict our future, don't we? I might be back in KL to work. Or, I might be continuing my Masters in London, where he too will be there for his Masters.
I want the best for myself, like I've always wanted. I want the best for us, too. But, how? Either way, something, someone, will have to sacrifice. He is a nice bf. Understanding and supportive. He wants me to go. He wants me to take the chance to make my dream come true. He wants the best for me, for my future.
We came to a conclusion. We don't know what will happen in the future. We don't know if I will be going to London. We don't know if I will be back in Penang to work. We don't know if I will continue my Masters directly after my degree in London. We don't know. But, we know that we will give it a try. The rest is left for God to decide. I have faith in you, dear. In us.
As for this, I respect those who are in long distance relationship and is still able to maintain it well. Tiffany, Cecilia, Jane. You gals proved that distance is not a barrier and I *salute* you gals for that!